On January 6, 2017, I was not in a good place. I had written a suicide note to my wife. That day, I had planned on taking my life.
It was mid afternoon, I had cleared out my desk at work, and walked out of the office like I would never see any of my colleagues again.
In my letter to my wife, I had told her to look after our then 5yo, 4yo & 11mth old children. To guide them thru life in my absence. I would do my best to look over them from above. Life for me was too hard. I had given up. All the years of fighting my inner demons, the anxiety, depression had caught up with me. I thought my wife & kids plus those around me were better off without me here. How wrong was I?
Thru some divine intervention that day, and unbeknown to me, my wife had contacted the NSW Police Force. She was desperate and had no other option, as this was her only available and last resort to save her Husband's life, the father of her children. Dad had to be saved. And I was blessed that on that day, there were 8 patrol cars out looking for me. They cared.
The police were monitoring my every move thru texts that were being sent via my wife's phone and tracking my whereabouts accordingly. In short, they picked me up that day before I was to do something I would regret, taking my life.
For those that know me, I am your typical happy go lucky kind of guy, the guy who you would never expect to be suffering from anxiety or depression. What is your typical kind of guy? That's right, there isn't one.
Mental Health is a serious problem that many of us in the community face. It's real. It affects 1 in 5 people. However, with the help of loved ones, doctors and health care professionals, schools and workplaces, all supporting us, we can triumph over mental illness.
I am 12 months down the track now and whilst I have good days and bad days, I am grateful that on January 6 last year, I had someone who cared so much for me, that she did whatever was possible to save my life, and she did. I am now learning to live with my mental health issues and gain strength every day. I won't lie, life is certainly not always easy, but it's better than the alternative that I was looking at.
I love my wife Rachel more than she will ever know and because she cared so much, our 3 beautiful children will now grow up with a Dad and my Wife still has a Husband whom she can hopefully grow old with too.
Always ask those around you if they are okay? If you sense that something is not quite right, where possible, don't give up on them just as my wife didn't 12 months ago.
So please, if you can donate to a wonderful cause, however great or small, I would be most appreciative. And just like Rachel & the NSW Police Force that day, you too could save the life of someone.
The Black Dog Institute means the world to me. It's an honor to be running for them in this year's City 2 Surf as one of their Charity Superstars. I am certainly not a superstar, but just someone who is trying to make a difference thru a wonderful charity.
I will be representing so many people, sadly those that are no longer with us, but also those that we can hopefully reach out to now, and into the future. Education is paramount and together, as a Community, we can help so many. For me this is a life changer.
Thank you for taking the time to read my story,
My name is William Gotsis and life is worth fighting for!